hey government can I have some money to go to university
sure here you go. you'll have to pay it back but only when you're earning £21,000+ a year, and if you don't pay it off after 30 years we'll just write it off, don't worry about it man
nah man just go to uni we ain't gonna charge you
no. you gotta pay it yourself. upfront. your parents have to save up from the moment you're born. good luck, fucker.
Today was not good
I had a panic attack
Fine now cause’ corgis
Winter is never a good time for me, no matter what good is happening in my life I am always dragged down. While December and January were actually pretty decent months, February has been incredibly trying. I had zero energy to do anything, I was annoyed with people (even people who don’t annoy me) and I couldn’t see past negative thoughts that just like to appear out of nowhere (jerks).
While this bad mood/darkness is typical of winter I have also recognised areas in my life which I am no longer content with and these are areas which I have the power to change. Often times I find people react to my darkness poorly. They tell me to stop being so negative, to think happy thoughts, to be patient etc. All garbage. If there is something in your life which is detrimental to your health, mental or physical, and you have the power to change it by all means do. Sometimes this requires discussion and an ear from people while you work through your shit, not some bullshit cliché sayings. Let’s empower each other to be the best we can be.
As I start to wake up from my winter hibernation I feel like I’m in need of a personal challenge. I am by no means religious but since Lent starts this week I figured I’d follow along. At first I thought that giving up chocolate (my major vice at the moment) would be a good challenge but then I read something highlighting this as an opportunity to make a more meaningful sacrifice. So instead of giving up chocolate (a sign of other problems) I’m going to focus on letting go.
"Let go of negative feelings. Release those feelings or anger, jealousy or fear. Find positive ways to reestablish your mindset. Is it easy? No. Is it meaningful? Absolutely!"
So here is to getting better and making changes when you need to.